December time

I want to start this post off my saying I usually forget what I look like, so this photo booth photo was something to remind me of my face. I know that seems odd (not remembering what one looks like) and I do have a general idea of myself, but I usually don’t imagine me as myself. In my mind I have no face, just a persona. Taking this thinking further I am even more baffled about my own process in the fact that I am a very visual person. I remember images, colors and shapes very well. One reason I have to work at remembering names and not faces.

This past fall I’ve been dealing with many issues. Personal issues involving many people that I cannot discuss openly online. In this process I have been an intermediate acting as a person balancing both sides of the coin. It has been stressful and at times a frustrating process. But there have been many positives. Working through these difficulties I have personally grown in ways I thought would take many more years to reach. I have sought and found mentors with great wisdom and insight. And with much hope I have taken positive steps forward in resolving unmentioned issues.

Now why do I bring all this forward. This week I wonder how I can take this new aspect of myself and integrate it into the rest of myself. Other personal growth have come from my experience with the new media space. Podcamp, twitter, podcasts, and even this blog have helped me relearn how to communicate. I feel empowered with this new knowledge and community. Watching twitter and blogs this past year has led me to realize communicating with the new media community is just the tip of the iceberg. I see now how I could be reaching out to those who are not in the new media space. Sharing and connecting.

This thinking has led me full circle back to my photo above. Perhaps I don’t remember my face not because I don’t remember but because it is constantly changing. I want to say look for my new sweet idea coming down the pike (because that is how I feel right now). In all thoughtfulness I think I have ideas to develop and communities to empower, but I don’t know how that will happen exactly. I just know that I am going to add that extra piece to my personal vision. I’m looking forward to the future not only because I’ll be there, but I’ll be there with all of you.

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   John R. Carman

   December 1, 2007

   When G saw you on the street the other day, he didn’t recognize you right away because he remembers you from PodCamp. I guess you didn’t look like a mountain man back then, but I barely recall. Of course, I hadn’t slept in three days at the time.

   I also have a problem remembering faces, and that has always interested me, being a visual person myself. Did you know that there is a specialized part of the brain that recognizes faces? And if that part of the brain is injured, one can experience Face-Blindness (Prosopagnosia), a condition that makes it impossible to recognize faces.

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   Trula

   December 1, 2007

   I like the pic and your post is very interesting. I’ve been undergoing a personal transformation this year myself, especially in regards to communication. I’ll be looking forward to reading more of what you have to say.

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   Cynthia Closkey

   December 1, 2007

   Strangely enough, although that picture is clearly of you, it doesn’t quite look the way I think of you because you look really down in it. I guess I typically see you in social situations, with fun stuff going on all around, and you’re quite a bit more smiley and upbeat.

   So there’s an aspect of what you look like — what all of us look like — that is the part you keep to yourself. Blogging and other new media are interesting in that it gives one a way to share that personal view with the world.

   I look forward to seeing these newer things you’re developing.

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